see 158.

She’s smiling.
But is it real?

I hope so.


Some days are harder than others. And sometimes you wonder whether living is even worth it. Especially when loneliness tightens its hands around your neck. Is there a reason to live? Maybe yes. Maybe no.
If hope in the future is what keeps you going and it doesn’t seem to be working right now, remember you always have the present to live in.
And in the present, you have friends. It’s just a matter of letting them help carry the burden with you. :)

Friendship is dependence on another person, giving them your trust. It can be hard but you never know until you try!

think 189.

I don’t know if what I feel for my parents is love, as bad as that sounds.
There is an immense amount of gratitude and appreciation.
And an overaggressive need to protect them.
But I still let Mom ask for the discounts because she is more fob and dad mow the lawn while I sit inside away from the pollen and allergies, watching TV.

If I really loved my parents, these things would not happen. Right?
So what is it?

see 157.

Waiting to make a right turn.
There is clearly no one in the left lane. Yet the car still drives in the right, the one I want to turn on to.
Couldn’t you just move over one lane for me to get out?


Driving peeve.

hear 159.

Thunder is scary.

hear 158.

Rather than trashing people to make ourselves feel better, can’t we just move on? Forgive if you can. If not, then ignore?

Time does heal, believe it or not.
So don’t stoop so low.

think 188.

First half-marathon. Check.
Probably last one too.


All mental.

think 187.

All this sitting is making me nervous. I feel like I should run. But I want to stay injury-free before the big day.

GAH
I can feel all that hard-earned muscle turn to fat.

hear 157.

Dear Mom,

I am 21. Almost 22. I understand that in your heart, I will always be your little girl. But do I really still need your permission to travel? I believe that if I went to school in California, you would not even know if I drove across America. I ask for your permission out of respect. Living at home, I know I am still under your mercy. But I am only asking for a little freedom. I can always go without your support. But it would be nice to have it. Please let me go on adventures.

see 156.

Thought it would be fun to try on 3-inch heels…
foot almost cramped.