see.hear.think

see 240.

Mon, 20 May 2013 14:49:38 -0700

There was an older couple in the bath aisle. I don’t exactly know what they were talking about. But it was cute, the way they were smiling at each other. But it looked like they were deciding what to buy. In sign language.

think 275.

Sun, 12 May 2013 18:02:31 -0700

This feeling is funny.
Going on a roadtrip with a friend and her family.
Wondering how my parents and brother are doing.

Never thought every jackfruit would remind me of my dad, every picture of my mom, and every ride of my little big brother.

think 275.

Tue, 30 Apr 2013 22:28:01 -0700

In need of some soul-searching.

Sad that it didn’t post all the way: I do not agree with the decision that was made and the...

Tue, 30 Apr 2013 22:05:00 -0700

Sad that it didn’t post all the way:

I do not agree with the decision that was made and the reasoning behind it. The ceremony should be a celebration of said party, and if said party wants to celebrate it in a certain way and enhance the experience, I believe that that wish should be granted. I do believe that it is an appropriate request. Just because something has always been one way does not mean we cannot improve it or make it more meaningful, even if it is at the last minute. The work you put in is the work you get out and it honestly would not take a lot to do. The administrators should also understand that the education they fed to us ultimately make us question their authority over us. I do not agree with the decision or the reasoning and it makes me want to rebel even more.

Agreed.

hear 241.

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 21:07:55 -0700

I understand and agree that changing the plans of a ceremony is difficult. And for that, I will not push further.

But, I do not agree with the part when he said we cannot change it because it has been this way for “many, many, many years.” First, I was told that this was not a legitimate reason to use tradition for us to keep our jerseys by your administration. And secondly, if something is bad, we ought to change it.

My inner rebel…

think 274.

Wed, 24 Apr 2013 22:02:00 -0700

Maybe if it is successful enough times in my head, I will be a bit braver.

think 273.

Fri, 19 Apr 2013 00:54:00 -0700

I am writing a paper for my communications class. But like any other paper, I like it to be personal so I can explore a bit more of the past and its moments. For what? I don’t know. Perhaps to find a little piece of myself.

Writing on this one past “love” has brought back many memories. We were never official. In fact, I don’t even know what we were. But the more I write, the more I found myself in the wrong. The doubts. The insecurities. The mistrust. And the more sorry I felt about being so weak.

Sometimes I wonder what it would have been like had I given us a chance, had I believed in his sincerity. I was always afraid to think there was something going on between us. He never said anything to confirm it and I never asked. And slowly, we drifted apart because I was selfish. I didn’t believe that someone like him—really anyone actually—would like someone like me. We were so different. He so confident. Me so … not. Still not.

I really dislike it when people say that the past is the reason why they are the way that they are. I believe that people can be stronger than that, that they can choose to break the chains holding them down if they fight hard enough.
But it’s easier said than done.
These walls I built to defend whatever I am trying to hide is hard to tear down even from the inside. How do I expect anyone to even attempt?

But here again, I am in a position in which I can ask. Ask if another he is like this with all of his female friends. Because if he confirms what I already think, then we can part in peace.
Somehow or another, I know this is wrong: wanting confirmation for a negative outcome.
I guess I just don’t understand how people do it. How do people let others in with such open arms, ready to be loved?

Other than it’s a commercial… this is pretty cool.

Wed, 17 Apr 2013 08:55:02 -0700

Other than it’s a commercial… this is pretty cool.

hear 240.

Tue, 16 Apr 2013 22:28:11 -0700

I’ve never taken a class with this professor before. But I see her every once in a while in the science building. She always asks how everything is going.

Well today, that “how’s everything going?” turned into an hour-long conversation spanning from careers to health to politics.

Sometimes, people just connect.

think 272.

Tue, 16 Apr 2013 22:24:32 -0700

I don’t want to think it’s something when it’s nothing. But I want it to be something more than nothing.

hear 239.

Tue, 16 Apr 2013 22:17:03 -0700

It’s scary when people don’t listen.
It’s scary when they don’t understand.
But it’s even scarier when they jump onto the bandwagon without question.

Saw them on Coachella. Makes me want to attend a concert because...

Sun, 14 Apr 2013 21:04:00 -0700

Saw them on Coachella. Makes me want to attend a concert because it sounded better from the performance there. Although I do like the orchestra in this version.

hear 238.

Sun, 14 Apr 2013 09:52:00 -0700

We were sitting in the booth—my parents, my uncle, and I—about to leave after eating 25 plates of sushi. And I popped the question, jokingly.
Ok… maybe half seriously.

Me: What if I said I wanted to get a tattoo?

They all looked at me in shock.

Uncle: Are you crazy? Do you want to be a gangster?
Dad: No. Why would you do that?
Mom: Ugh. Don’t do it!

And they launched into stories about why and how I will be shamed for inking what I wanted to be a small reminder to cherish the impermanence of life.

Photo

Fri, 12 Apr 2013 16:39:06 -0700

think 271.

Fri, 12 Apr 2013 16:38:00 -0700

Every now and then,
I feel a bit antisocial.
I want to crawl in bed,
dream about sleeping away eternity.
Each breath anchored to
hollow
emptiness.

All the talk pointless,
all the smiles faked,
weathering little by little
the little flame
until it
poofs into a puff.
The smoke trail disappears into the
welcomed black blanket.

And I just sit.

Waiting
for a light.

hear 237.

Wed, 10 Apr 2013 15:26:25 -0700

Maybe it isn’t that the person is changing.
Maybe it’s how you see that person that is changing.

Photo

Sun, 07 Apr 2013 18:38:35 -0700

think 270.

Sun, 07 Apr 2013 17:54:00 -0700

Those moments…
before starting homework
before taking an exam
walking aimlessly in the mall
watching people stream by with smiles
standing bare in the shower
letting sleep wash over this burnt out body

What’s the point in all this?

think 269.

Sun, 07 Apr 2013 16:57:54 -0700

Is it cowardly to recognize your weaknesses and still not try to overcome them?

"Others may have far more ability than you have. They may be larger, faster, quicker, able to jump..."

Wed, 03 Apr 2013 15:50:00 -0700

“Others may have far more ability than you have. They may be larger, faster, quicker, able to jump better, etc. But no one should be your superior in team spirit, loyalty, enthusiasm, cooperation, determination, industriousness, fight, and character. Acquire and keep these traits and success will follow. Define success for those under your leadership as total commitment and effort to the team’s welfare.”

- John Wooden